here's the "stuff"

Okay. So I said I'd update you on the "stuff" I've been dealing with, so here it is. I've just been feeling lonely. Then Matt posts about loneliness. Then Herschel posts about loneliness. I think, as Herschel said, that our generation is dealing with loneliness a ton. I was so uplifted by the scripture in Isiah. Praise the Lord!!

It's not that I don't have a ton of friends to hang out with. I do, and we hang out all the time. Let's face it, I'm 25 and single and not dating and haven't dated for years. I'm wondering when God's going to say, Okay. Now's your time...or even IF he's going to say it.

Now, I know you're probably like, years? Whatever. Really. It's been years. After my senior year in high school I just felt that God was telling me to take a break from all the dating and relationship stuff and just to focus on Him. I said okay. I didn't think that 7 going on 8 years later I'd still be waiting. Sometimes God just calls us to take a leap of faith. That's what I did, and this time with Him has been wonderful. It's very seldom that I just feel incredibly lonely like I have lately, but it does happen. Satan just tries to get in there and make me feel sorry for myself. Sometimes it works.

Finally the other night I just laid in bed and cried out to God, please take this from me. God, I still want to do what You want me to. If that's being single, please fill me with Your peace. You know what?

He did.