Sunday, May 01, 2005

FINDING THE RIGHT ATTITUDE

Have you ever had one of those relationships where it felt like all you did was do everything you could to keep the friendship going, and the other person didn't reciprocate any kind of effort at all? Yeah? Me, too. I'm in the process of losing a friend that I've known for most of my life, and it's really bumming me out, but here's the deal. I'm not willing to put forth 100% of my effort plus 100% of their effort just to keep a friendship going. I figure if they want to be my friend, they'll try to, oh, I don't know, maybe call me once in a while, right? Maybe I'm blowing this way out of proportion, you know. Maybe I'm just such an annoying person to this other person for trying to continue this friendship that they just got sick of me and won't call me anymore. I will tell you, however, that in the past 3 to 6 months the only time I've gotten a call from this person is when they've needed me to do something or they're calling me back 'cause I had called earlier. Am I over-reacting? I don't know. All I know is that it hurts because we used to be best friends. This is someone I'm really going to miss, but it just feels like they don't really care, so really, what other choice do I have?

Just pray for me that if my attitude is off on this that God will set me straight and break me down so that I can be a willing and faithful friend. I'm just a little sad right now.

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